A Bug's World

End of Year

Seems this year has been so very full of travel and and other events. But, I, no surprise, did not document so much of it. I plead that I've been busy. With making baby and doctor visits, the kids I volunteer with as a GAL, various trips, and then opening my mouth and ending up on the Home owners board of directors -- yeah I've been a bit busy. Oh yeah, also fixing Bug's new room, redoing our bedroom and just general clutter patrol. And did I mention I have no definition below my knees due to swelling and have some form of carpal tunnel syndrome as a result of this pregnancy? I'm not a good pregnant person. I don't glow or get bubbly. I swell and bitch.

Has to the happiness factor -- I am happy that my family is in genral healthy and that this baby is almost here. David mentioned the other day that good exercise for me would be to find three things to be happy about everyday. I'm pretty sure he means actual things and that just continued breathing and life doesn't really count. It is good advice; bet i could even find it in some of my therapy text or treatment planning models from school.

But something needs to change, and this is at least a cheap method of therapy. Just find three things that made me happy during the day - or that I could at least not be upset about. HMMM....

1. I managed to get all of the Christmas stuff in boxes today - except the tree. It will all probably sit around for weeks, but at least it is boxed.
2. Jessica went down for her nap before 5:00. that's good because then when I wake her up about 6:30 or so I know she at least got a good 90 minute nap which should help with this evenings plans.
3. Today when asked our names, she called me "pretty girl" and David "dippy". Now that's just good for a belly laugh.

Hope you all have a Happy New Year.

Surprise Holiday Hit

Who would have ever guessed that the Bug's favorite holiday movie would be "King Kong"? Oh sure, she has "Rudolph", "Frosty", "Santa Claus is Coming to Town", and any number of other movies. But this season, for whatever reason, the big ape taking away the pretty girl seems to have become a favorite. She really gets into the movie - yelling at the monkey, telling pretty girl to run and just generally being terribly alarmed but all the going ons. Well, her interest lasts until they get back to New York and it really starts turning kind of mushy. Can't blame her there.

Just more proof that our child is indeed a little bit off.

The "BLAHs"

Do you ever just get in one of those moods where nothing really does it for you? When things are just blah and life seems to have lost all color and getting anything done seems to be a major effort?

Maybe it's becuase I'm big and round and roly-polyish right now. Maybe it's just the aftermath of Christmas. Maybe I'm just tired, or cycling thru my gray moods.

My Bug notices my moods -- which I have not yet decided if that is good or bad. She asks me if I'm happy, which makes me want to cry. She tells me to be happy, which makes me want to laugh. And then she crawls up in my lap, hugs me and tells me the she will make me happy. Such dangerous dynamics that I really don't want to have.

And the real bitch of it is - other than just being sort of physically miserable right now - I really shouldn't be unhappy about anything.

Yes, I know it's called depression and that there are medications for it. I've got my presecription filled.

I just wish happiness came easier or was at least a more natural state for me lately. What happened?

Just holiday/ end of pregnancy blahs I hope.

Blessings

In November, I went to the daycare for their Thanksgiving lunch. A few other parents were there as well. The children sat down and all very sweetly put their hands together to say their blessings. In a sing song voice:

"Heavenly Father, Heavenly Father, thank you for our blessings, thank you for our blessings, AA-Amen, AA-Amen"

Then, each and every one of them ended thier prayer with "Now drink your milk and no talking"

The teacher was mortified.

The parents laughed.

And all the children drank their milk. Amen.

Last Few Months

Things here have just been busy busy busy. With the Bg being three, me being pregnant, and David constantly on the go..seems just too much sometimes. Brief highlights:

In September we got me a new car, a very pretty blu Mazda CX-7 - Pictures eventually. Also, David and I got away for a weekend in the Bahammas without Jessica. It wqas a lawyer conference and David was presenting, but the get away was still nice.

In October we had our 5th wedding anniversary. Also Jessica had her mouth injury which has recovered just fine. however, she now constantly asks to see the doctor...i think she has a crush.

In November we went away for a week to Colorado Springs. David had two conferences back to back that were held at The Broadmore Hotel. Very nice place; had even been spotlighted on the travel channel as one of the premier destination hotels in North America. David had seminars all week, but
Jessica and I did get out to see the sights. We went to the zoo which had a wonderfull giraffe exhibit. Got in a visit with two good friends who live up that direction and a visit with my brother and his girlfriend. (He's stationed up there and is due to head back overseas in March). Also in November we had Thanksgiving and Jessica got to visit with cousins Matthew, Ian and new baby Collin.

So far in December, David went away at the beginning of the month to another conference in Atlanta. Jessica has seen every animated Christmas special ever made about 10 times at least. I spent the better part of a week on bed rest due to blood pressure being to high. We got our master bedroom repainted, new furniture and new linens. It finally looks closer to what I like in a grown up bedroom. And I have developed carpal tunnel inboth arms due to swelling from the pregnancy.

But the tree is up, presents abound and I got all my Christmas presents out and delivered before this weekend.

And I really would make that Christmas Lasagna this year if anyone was expecting me to cook.